Today I am going to start to take half pills of Zoloft. I need to do this for my husband and my marriage. I cannot believe how significantly it has decreased my feelings for anything. I am numb. And with the kind of person I am that is dangerous. I am not very loving, I don't emote very well. I don't hug, I don't kiss I really don't like holding hands. When I show affection to my kids it's forced. I love them, but I was not raised to show it in any physical sort of way. I know I love my husband and children, I do not feel that I do. In addition, it's killing my sex life. I cannot for the life of me figure out why anyone has sex. It's purpose is now totally lost on me. That is not ok. That will make me more depressed.
Let's hope this works. I am off to run. I just read my scriptures while my mood light was on. It's ugly and January outside, but I need to try anyway.
